Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Two Weeks....

Tuesday. Two o'clock. Two weeks. How is this even possible? Our family is not the same without you. How could it be? We are missing a piece. Each day we realize again what a big piece you are. It seems like forever and a blink at the same time. Our house has all the signs of a baby….toys ,clothes, pacis, diapers, wipes, highchair, crib....just no baby. No noise, no joyfilled eyes, no demands for food, no poopy diapers, no praise baby video on repeat (by demand), no drool, no giggles, no hugs. We love you so much E. Each day we take a new step without you.. Wish it was with you. Last year (2015) was a year of adjusting to life with you. This year we have to readjust to life without you and it just feels wrong. I know that you are bringing so much joy to Heaven. It is just who you are. And in my mind I can see you praising the Lord just like you did here. Whole body, whole soul. Miss you like crazy.

Lord, Thank you for holding us, sustaining us. Help us walk through this in a way that can only bring you glory.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

One Week

One week almost to the minute since we were rushing to the ER. One moment our day was going perfect...the next moment it turned into a nightmare. One week since I held you in my arms. One week since I chased you around closing toilet seats and shooing you away from the trash cans. One week since you gave me a kiss and lots of drool. One week since we plan our days around you. One week with so much quiet. One week of a broken heart. One week of a gaping hole in our family. One week of you with Jesus.

Happy week in Heaven Ezra. Enjoy your day little one. We are just trying to figure out how to live down here without you. Love you so.

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Ezra Hello to Heaven Video

This amazing video was put together by Brian @ Brian Shofner Photography.

Hardest video I have ever watched.  Only saw it once.

Celebration Day

E baby. We celebrated you all day. It was beautiful weather and you are absolutely cherished little one. As we try to figure out how to live down here without you, I am thankful to know you are racing Jesus up the streets of gold and eating all the bananas you can find. I long to hold you as we sing before bed but I know that you are praising your creator with all that is within you. Love you so so much little one. Miss you like crazy. 💗

Friends, family, and new friends we don't yet have words to properly express our love and thankfulness to each of you. You have blessed our socks off. We thank you for praying and continuing to pray. Thanks for loving brightly today!

Friday, March 4, 2016

I don't have words to express the overwhelming generosity, kindness,

My dear friends and family. I don't have words to express the overwhelming generosity, kindness, love, messages, texts, and prayers. We are so very thankful that you have chosen to join us as we walk through this valley. It is dark and it is ugly. (John 1:5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it) . Your prayers are sustaining us as sometimes our words fail us. Thank you for getting in the muck with us and for lifting us up with your prayers. Thank you for loving us. Thank you for loving Ezra. We are thankful for every single moment we had with him in the 467 days we got to love him here on Earth.

Love you E. Love you so so much.

Thankful for your promises Jesus and holding you to it.

John 16:33 I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.

John 14:27

Matthew 11:28-29

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Sweet E. My boy. You are the epitome of joy.

Sweet E. My boy. You are the epitome of joy. We couldn't have loved you anymore. Nobody could have. You knew you were adored by all. I have no idea why you are gone, only that you are. It hasn't even been 24 hours yet. Oh how we love you. Oh how we miss you. I'm so thankful that you are with Jesus. You are with Grandpere and Meme and Granny. But my arms long to hold you. I long for you to be my alarm clock. I long for you to beg for more food, try to keep up with your brother, mess up something your sisters are working on, play with all the loudest toys in history, or plan our whole day around your nap. Anything to see you smile at me, your eyes lock with mine. We love you our son.