16 Months...

Hey sweet boy! 💙 Happy 16 months in Heaven. I know I say this every month, but I can hardly believe it has been SIXTEEN months since I held you. 16 months since I sang to you. 16 months since I changed your diaper. 16 months since I searched the entire house for a pacifier. 16 months since I daily searched the trash to see what treasures you had stashed in there. 16 months since I heard your laugh and your squeal. 16 months since our family was whole. 16 months since my heart was whole. Which is a very wordy way to say...you are SO SO missed and SO SO loved. ❤️💙❤️💙 I just want you to know little one...you got the better end of this bargain. 😜 You only knew love. You only knew adoration. You only knew safety. And then you went straight to Heaven. HEAVEN. You never knew uncertainty. You never knew loss. You never knew heartbreak. You never knew bullying. Or debt. Or evil. And I am happy about that for you! But....selfishly...... I miss you for me. 💔💔 Love you so so much, Mom **This morning I had an hour and a half drive alone. (Moms...seriously... isn't this amazing??!!). I decided to get ahead of my emotions for the day. I put the praise music on as loud as I wanted and reminded myself of THE truth. I just wanted to share the song that resonated so deeply with me: ⚓️ "Anchor” ⚓️ by Hillsong I have this hope As an anchor for my soul Through every storm I will hold to You With endless love All my fear is swept away In everything I will trust in You There is hope in the promise of the cross You gave everything to save the world You love And this hope is an anchor for my soul Our God will stand Unshakeable Unchanging One You who was and is to come Your promise sure You will not let go Your Name is higher Your Name is greater All my hope is in You Your word unfailing Your promise unshaken All my hope is in You **Thank you LORD for your word and for your promises. They are UNFAILING and UNSHAKEN and my HOPE is fully in YOU. ❤️⚓️